My name is Samuel and I am Lamanita

I Samuel the Lamanite

I, Samuel, am a Lamanite. And I tell you that you can be dead and not know it.
I was. Hatred for the Nephites devoured my soul like a jaguar for a lamb. Day after day, my flock wandered after me through the fields while I brooded over a brown, parched pain. Nothing in the land of the living made me forget my beloved Itzayana and my little Itzae and I longed for a grave like the traveler’s rest.
The grass that once refreshed my soul, pushed by a strange breath, leaned towards me piercing me like darts, bringing to my memory the small feet of Itzae running about it.
My heartbeat only sent sadness to my body and my veins led the rancor of my soul to every pore. My sour and bitter face glowed in the night with the reddish light of revenge.

One night, while I was dozing next to the fire, I heard a voice calling me. Samuel!
It was not a man’s voice, I know them. It was a powerful voice like a cascade of rivers, soft as a breeze between trees, beautiful as Itzayana calling my son. He calmed me down like the thirsty one who drinks from the stream, or like the laughter of Itzae as he cleared my fears like the wind in the clouds.
Samuel LamanitaThen my fire went out and my anger with him. I turned inside myself because a man whose wife and son have been murdered must not let his hatred die too. I tried to recover it, stoke it, but I could not, it was gone and I cried for losing the only thing I had left, my only refuge.
When my tears dried, the voice that spoke to me said that it was the God of my parents, the one who made the rivers, the grass and the clouds, the one that blew among the trees. He told me that he also lost many children and showed me his tears, they were like rivers that flooded the sky.
He told me about his love for his sheep and called me to bring him to the lost. That is why I left mine and prepared to fulfill his mandate. But then my soul was already light as a feather and my heart clean as early corn.
Yes, the voice called me to go to Zarahemla, to those Nephites who took my eyes off my sweet Itzayana and the laughter of my little Itzae.



My name is Nicte which means flower, because my mother Yuritzi loved flowers. That’s why she decided to always have one by her side. But now I’m alone in a strange house and she and my brother Kinich went together hand in hand, a dark night and fever.
Samuel LamanitaMy little brother Kinich, like his name, was the face of the Sun, but he was born crippled from one leg. Kinich accompanied me to the market with a reed per spear because I was his queen and I had to defend myself against the enemies. He can never dissuade him and paid the price for the affront. He often received mockeries and stones, I knew it, but he hid it.
When he came home one of those days with a head wound, he sat serious and reserved looking at the wall, motionless. I approached and stabbed his wounds without saying a word. I observed in his face trembling tears about to overflow his eyelid, but upon realizing, my brave little brother smiled and told me how his attackers fled. Always clinging to his rod like a spear, when it was his hidden staff. Always by my side with his twisted walk and hard gesture. In his lonely childhood he had me as a horizon for his sight and refuge for his soul.
Kinich was incapable of offending anyone, he did not conceive revenge or resentment. His pain was unknotted, detached from any response. It was a clean pain like the sweat of honest work, that which spills in great drops and not like that caused by perfidy, greasy and sticky. His innocence produced a sound inside my chest, like a dumm! that moved me and extended through my joints making them visible by a tremor.
At night he huddled next to me and I carefully removed his child’s weapon and the brave boy slept while I watched over his warrior dream.
That morning as usual I went to the market and listened to a Lamanite who spoke from the South Wall, about the cotton dye shops. They told me that his name was Samuel and that the day before, he was kicked out of town.

He would cry out loudly.
          «But behold, the resurrection of Christ redeems the human race, yes, to all mankind, and brings it back to the presence of the Lord.» (1)

I do not know how it was. Upon hearing it, a flower emerged that waited patiently for that moment, and the words that I hid in the grave where I left them spread out like petals. I remember well that those words came from the same place in my chest where my brother lived in my feelings, that place where the dumm resounded! And without fear I presented them before that name of which Samuel spoke.
«Jesus, son of God, I am alone and without my mother Yuritzi or my brother Kinich. Who will take care of them, who will watch over my little brother’s dream. Who will defend it from ridicule and stones «
My name is Nicte and I learned not to lie and my owner trusts the purchase of cotton and dyes in my hands, everyone knows me in the market. That’s why I tell you what happened to me and you must trust my words as well as the weight of the cotton I buy.
As I said these words within me, I heard a voice like the water of a stream, similar to the breeze in the grove, soft as fine cotton.
Samuel Lamanita
           «Fear not, little children, for you are mine, and I have overcome the world, and you are of those whom my Father has given me» (2)
The loneliness that accompanied me since then disappeared instantly. A sweet sensation flooded me and then I saw them inside me.
My mother was safe and lying on her chest. Kinich’s face was that of the Sun, a sweet and strong man. He proudly displayed his iron spear and the necklace of the two thousand. His arms were no longer thin but those of a strong warrior. There was no defect in his legs.
Kinich looked towards the horizon as if it were in his power, the light of the Sun in that world where it was, it made it shine like a star, the breeze of that place undulated its thick black hair.
Then he looked at me and looked at me with the same eyes of his childhood, raised his spear and smiled at me.
Then all fear and sorrow of my soul disappeared.
Upon returning to me, I ran to buy fruit and bread to take to Samuel, I went outside the walls, but when I arrived it was gone.


I am Yumil, my name means owner, but then I was only the owner of my art. He sang and played the flute in religious ceremonies, burials and celebrations of the powerful. When I asked my parents why they called me Yumil, they would remind me for a few moments and for an answer they would give me tasks to do. So stop asking.

Samuel Lamanita
That morning I was looking for inspiration for a new song and I found it when I saw Nicte at the cotton market. It was so beautiful that it inspired me a melody, I thought about touching it for her, hoping she would notice me. But not even then did he find the courage to do so.
Nobody considers me frightful because sometimes they would throw past vegetables or rotten fruit at me and I would stand it without fear. I was an artist, I could not be discouraged. Although sometimes I covered a veil of certainty, like a solid touch of things and I sensed that I was a failure worthy of compassion, that only I considered my art and that I was called to act when Aaj Beh or Kukulkan were out of town.
In those moments I sensed that those laughter and glances about me, were related in a common cause and then that day, it was dark and sad.
But as I was saying, that morning Nicte was listening to a Lamanita up on the South Wall. His figure was outlined in the sky and his voice attracted more and more people. While observing that scenario as a propitious place for my art, I heard the Lamanite speak about Jesus Christ the son of God.
«For behold, he must surely die so that salvation may come; yes, it belongs to him and it is necessary that he die to effect the resurrection of the dead … » (3)
Those words made a deep impression on me, but at that time my mind was stony and my thoughts stumbled among themselves and fell into disarranged words.
I asked myself: Why should I suffer and die so great … artist?
But still, the soul that was behind and veiled from that clumsiness was shocked
Suddenly stop being next to the wall or at least I thought.
I thought I saw a beautiful garden next to a source of crystal clear water. I do not think there is a place like that in this world and I have visited at least three cities. In that garden was a loving father talking to a handsome young man, he was his son. He did not give her assignments but answered her questions. I taught him very sweet and wise things, I still remember some.

Samuel Lamanita          «Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.
Blessed are the meek, for they will receive the land as an inheritance. » 

When listening, a clear and certain idea arose in my mind. The young man was that Jesus Christ of whom the Lamanite spoke. When I considered that I was going to die at the hands of … spectators for teaching their art of saving, I was overcome by such a commotion that I burst into tears. I knew something about it.
The boy told his father, that he would do very well, that everyone would appreciate the wisdom of the words he taught him. The father looked at him sympathetically and hugged him excitedly.
Then they noticed me, they turned their eyes and the father smiled at me and said:
          «Yes, blessed are the poor in spirit who come to me [son], for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.»  (5)
When I returned to me, many were throwing stones and arrows at the Lamanite. but I could not react. I was motionless without being able to move, I looked into the void. From that place, my life presented itself as it was and I clearly saw my nature and understood its surroundings and for the first time in my life I stopped acting. Then I understood how much effort I used to be who I was not, how poor I was who I represented.
In remembering that young man, who was going to face a dramatic fate for our cause, I can say that I became another Yumil, this time owner, yes, owner of his name.
The Lamanite jumped and I lost sight of him. I ran as much as I could out of the city. I only found Nicte with some fruit and bread.


Samuel LamanitaI am Yunuen, I am a warrior, an officer of the Zarahemla troops. I have seen a lot of blood running between my people and I have spilled mine in their defense. The tenderness with which my mother raised me disappeared long ago hardened by the scars of war. The smiles and the tender feelings were like the buzzing of flies around me. In the year 86 of the government of the judges I received orders to expel a certain Samuel, a Lamanite who came to preach about Jesus. For me it was a nuisance to be interrupted in my lunch for that simplicity, but I was on duty, so I sent my men and they made sure I did not bother anymore.

The next day I found out that Samuel was preaching from the South Wall at the cotton market. That day Iktan was on guard, so I went out of curiosity to see how that cocky beginner was developing.
When I arrived Iktan and his men were unable to shoot down Samuel with their arrows and stones, from a distance of less than forty cubits. While this was happening, the Lamanite prophesied our destruction. I was filled with anger, I went to Iktan and removed his bow, looking at me, lowered his eyes. I checked the rope and took a dart after checking its make and balance.
Before being an officer in the army I was a hunter, my father forced me to harden the tips of my fingers and to support the tension of the bow in my child’s body for hours. Now there was an opportunity to humiliate Iktan and he was not going to waste it.

Samuel LamanitaThe dart I chose was a reinforced tip, to pierce shields. Seeing the Lamanite’s complexion, the impact would lift it two inches off the ground, pierce it to the middle of the shaft. In a single movement, place the arrow and tensed the rope. The left arm, the back and the right elbow were a single line, as he had practiced since he was young. I carried the rope to my chin and with a back movement learned from my father, I added more tension. He taught me to release the arrow not with my fingers but by relaxing my hand on expiration.

With rage, I put all my disappointment on the tip of that arrow, my despair at not finding the glory or the happiness I was looking for. The high ideals of youth withered in the rudeness of forms and my spirit languished under my double armor.
Place on that point the dark hum that always accompanied me, the one that was three fingers below the sternum, yes, that slow death of my mind that little by little consumed me since I left childhood.
And now this little Lamanite came to proclaim the destruction of that for what I had fought all my life.
My hand released my fingers and these the rope.

«Therefore, remember, remember, my brothers, that he who perishes, perishes for his own sake; and whoever commits iniquity, does it against himself; for behold, you are free; you are allowed to act for yourselves; for behold, God has given you knowledge and has made you free. » (5)

Time stopped and I could see how the dart ran straight towards the heart of the Lamanite. An invisible cord went from my chest tied to the guide pen of the shaft. I accompanied her on the journey with all the bitterness of my soul tied to her, longing to tear her from me like a bad root. That, my pain, always unfinished able to cross stones.

I could see it, I do not know how, but I saw the shaft bend to Samuel’s right, four or five cubits. There is no power on this earth capable of doing that with such a shot. There was silence around me. I saw Iktan look at me incredulous and turn screaming at the men to climb the wall, but I did not hear him. Everything was slow and muted in my surroundings.
And then I noticed the tear in my soul caused by an invisible dart that pierced me. When listening to  the one who perishes, perishes for the sake of himself, the words of my mother came to me.
And then, my knees loosened and they did not hold me. And then I heard a crunch in my chest, pierced by something vibrant.

Samuel Lamanita

And my heart poured out like water inside me, and the words of my childhood about those two thousand, of their faith and their courage came. And they took possession of my dominions there in my interior, my towers fell and my defenses broke.
And I realized the slow death that I inflicted on myself. I remembered with sorrow my youthful contempt for the tenderness of my mother, for her humble look, and I remembered the name of Jesus pronounced by his eyes and carved on his lips.

Yo Yunuen, prince of water, I saw how Samuel jumped from the wall. Like the pupil of a great eye, he closed his eyes on me. As the last word disappears in the closed lips.
When I got up I noticed that the dark humming under my sternum, that slow death of my soul was gone. In its place I noticed a flutter, like that of a little bird that we let go of the hollow of our hand.

I ran out of the city, on the other side of the walls, but only found a girl with a basket of bread and fruits and beside her someone dressed in a striking way.

I Samuel the Lamanite, I go back home

Samuel LamanitaI Samuel tell you that man can return from death. And recover the sight to see the fresh grass. And feel the vigor that the soul receives from the fruits of the earth, both to please the sight and to cheer the heart. To invigorate the body and animate the soul.

And to recover the pulse of a dead heart, to look at the horizon with hope.
I have fulfilled the mandate of my God. When I approached the city and the view of the walls of Zarahemla burned my soul like iron to red, he blew in my burning. When I put the words in my heart to say, they made steam rise from my soul like water poured into hot stone. Even so, he anointed me with balm. When those to whom I declared their words brought to my memory those who took mine, then I was entrusted to their tender mercies, only they could comfort me.
When I finished the mission in the city, I got off the south wall and headed towards my land. I looked back at Zarahemla for the last time. I could see three people, a girl with a basket, a soldier and … an artist. I waved at them but they did not see me. I did not feel resentment anymore, my wound was healed.
Now I walk lightly through the meadow. I am no longer alone, the one who carries the winds to the forests, who shapes the clouds and traces the course of the rivers, called me. And it gave me a new heart and I went back to walking like a man in the world of the living.
Now I am heading to my land, my heart has good reasons to continue in this work, with other walls and other people. I return to my land and I do it by singing a song of my youth with my lips alive.
I’m not going alone, I feel Itzae around me. I can almost hear his chasing after the birds or trying to catch a grasshopper, or saying what shape the clouds have. And Itzayana’s smile beside me as the wind ripples her hair like the grass that caresses my feet.

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